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2 Weeks Out

In two weeks, I’ll toe the line again for a half marathon.  The same race I’ve run so many times, and my comeback from last summer’s injury.  I’ve been patiently crossing off the workouts, and noticed today that there are so many S’s on this page.  A month ago, I had a 10 day illness that had me crazed from not being about to train.  Two days ago, I woke with a similar scratchy throat feeling.

So.  I’m 2 weeks out.  Only one more long run of 9 miles on Wednesday coming up, but I can’t shake that same feeling.  I could have done more.  I could have trained harder.  These thoughts are followed by the notion that you cannot go back.  You simply have to show up on race day with what you have.

The hay is in the barn, but it’s sort of wobbly, stacked funny.  I’m not sure if all the pistons will be firing correctly on that morning, but there is simply nothing to do about it now, except…go forward.  I’m excited, no matter how the race comes out, because last summer, I was begging the gods for just one more chance.  You have no idea how much you want to run…when you can’t.

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exhale.

1fb9e83be6d1b687e02b1dbaf10aa885I set up this program to rest on Tuesday.  It’s Tuesday.  Thank God.

 

A goal properly set is halfway reached.

204112158655519431_4d13e7b45a1eThere’s something about being halfway through a training plan that always gives me sort of a start.  Like, how did I do this already, and how is there that much more to go?  Today starts week 6 of Modesto Half Marathon 12 week training plan, which means, of course, that not only am I getting ready to toe the line again, but that I am recovered.  Past tense.  No more silly #stressfracture hashtags.  That’s it.  I’m recovered.

This time, I have taken it slowly, but have incorporated a mean weight training program.  I have a tricep, and also a little pork chop looking muscle that drapes over my shoulders (excuse me, I’m a runner, not a weight lifter).  I now understand why body builders look in the mirror when they lift.  There is an excitement to see something you’ve actually built, and curiosity in watching the muscles course under my skin as they work.  I incorporate Core exercises, and have now successfully hung 15 long seconds in my quest to do one pull up by December 13, 2013.  I do squats.  I am working my whole body.

But my legs.  They are the sticks that will get me to the end.  And, even though I feel twinges of last year’s foot , I simply keep running, nailing all my times and distances.  It’s lovely really, because at the end of the day, I know that I’m taking my body to the best place it can be.

This weekend, I will do my first 5K in this training plan, running a little 3.1 miler in Fresno.  I don’t really care about distances, I care about that surge of energy when you lay out your gear the night before, lace up at 5am, slam down pre-run nutrition, pin on the bib.  That feeling of watching everyone else wait with me until the whistle blows, until I can blissfully fall into my own rhythm of the race.

Halfway there.  I’m loving this training cycle.

Mellow Half Mary Training

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On Wednesday I will turn 54.

In that time, I’ve run 5 marathons.

8 half marathons, and others…around 36 races.

only 10 of those before I turned 50.

When I was training for my first marathon, as the story goes,

I didn’t know I was 50.  Or that it was considered old.

and yet I trained.  On the overpasses, on the dark streets.

I didn’t know I could survive a hellish divorce in a quiet little town.

Or that I could single-handedly save my house…

This house with it’s broken dishwasher that’s suddenly started working,

the screen doors that Chet has ripped off the tracks,

the ripped gazebo, that still functions, sort of, as a place to put pool tools.

The pickets and arbor, long since their prime

and fences held up with 2 by 4s.

I was never sure that I could be enough as a single mom,

to raise two now-teenagers, and love it.  Really love it.

I was sure that as they got older they would want to live somewhere else.

With him.

And I was prepared for that, but they do not want that.  They want

here.

And because I have no man skills to share, my harley guy has stepped in,

and is, with the boys, building a basketball hoop for the street, and has offered to help teach

the oldest to drive, and the both of them how to play real poker.

Things I couldn’t do.  Didn’t want to.

Because every boy should learn to drive a stick shift, and bet like a man.

So, what I learned is this.

You never get anything you want, unless you ask.

And.  I asked.

And just when I would get some new resolve, I would get smashed back down, and then up.

Again.

I’m in week 5 of a Mellow Half Marathon Training, which is the title of this post,

but makes no sense at all, unless you see the big picture of my life right now.

Running 3 days a week, building muscle on the others.

It’s incredibly relaxing, and even as I get up into 6 milers, which I used to carve off with panache,

I sometimes struggle.  But, I keep running.

And 54?  I’m sure it’s going to be the best year of all.

I will attempt marathon number 6 in the Fall, but for right now,

I will prove that I can again toe the line and reclaim the love I have.

The brick walls are there for a reason. The brick walls are not there to keep us out. The brick walls are there to give us a chance to show how badly we want something. Because the brick walls are there to stop the people who don’t want it badly enough. They’re there to stop the other people.–Randy Pausch

Thinner. Stronger. Older. Wiser.

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Today ends the first week of training for the Modesto Half Marathon.  Not having run more than 3 miles since about May of 2012, I was eager to get started.  I posted this plan a week or so ago, and just laid low.  On Sunday night, I realized that the plan I laid out actually started that day, so I laced up and went out for 2 miles in the cold.

This plan is different for me because I’m employing weights 3x a week, instead of my usual 6 days of Hanson running.  I lifted on Monday, Thursday and will tomorrow, because I’m after that elusive pull up.  Right now I can hang comfortably for 8 seconds.  I can do 3 assisted pull-ups.

For week 1, I ran 9 miles total.  I ran a long run of 4 on Wednesday, and my foot is fine.  I felt really good, but very slow and sluggish today.  I’m slowly (emphasize slowly) trying to take off the 8% of the weight I gained since my race weight day back in May.  (That’s 14 pounds).  Currently, I have 3 off already.  I gained a few here and there, then got the cast and boot …and there went 5 more.  At the holidays, 5 more came back on with unrestrained eating …So.  That is the quest.

Today as I was running, I was struggling.  I have no idea why, after a great run on Wednesday.  I credit my 4 other bloggy gal pals who have enthusiastically joined a weight loss challenge with spurring me on to better my body.  We are currently putting up our Thinspiration pictures, and a theme is emerging.  It’s not enough to be thin as I was when I raced in May.  It’s more important to be strong.  Thinner, stronger, older, wiser.

Thus ends Week 1.

718.87 miles

218635756881994079_lWidlGJc_cI have two more miles to run for 2012, to make 718.27.  I thought I had them on schedule for tomorrow.  Then, I looked at my plan.  I have had a wonderful yummy dinner.  And now.  I must go run.  THEN, this number will be the final for 2012:  718.27.

Today, my Half Marathon plan starts.  Modesto Half Marathon scheduled for March 24…first race back post stress fracture.  First REAL race…I did do a 5K this year, but I didn’t train for it.

So.  Here it is.  The path.  The plan.  And…here I am.  Celebrating my 54th New Years on the planet.  I’m coming back.  And I have a lot of work to do…

Time to lace up.  I’m out.

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enter a spring half mary.

Since I got the go ahead to run, I’ve been planning a full marathon.  Back in the saddle, on the horse so to speak.  And I’ve been running here and there…had a 5K, ran some more.  But, the thought of a full marathon again so soon after the summer of the boot/cast has been a little more daunting, both emotionally and mentally.

I had planned out my speech to the doctor next week, in which I would give him all the reasons I can do the 26.2.   As I was thinking of this conversation, I noticed sort of a lull in my brain.  Like, I really didn’t want to do one.

So.  Here’s the deal.  I’m going to try and PR a half this Spring, and possibly do the Fresno Eye Q Marathon next November.  I have time to spare.  I think it’s a much better plan for me because it de-stresses the marathon comeback a bit.  Plus, there is nothing so scary as hearing a doctor say you can NEVER run again, and if I injure the foot again, that’s exactly what I would be looking at, in terms of continued training.

It’s 18 weeks until the Modesto Half Marathon.  Gotta stay local and cheap.  And I’m hoping that a smaller goal will help me rediscover my marathon love!  Stay tuned!

 

tinkerbell escape weekend. and a half marathon.

A few weeks ago, someone I know happened to ask, “Does anyone want my Tinkerbell bib?”  As with everything else, first I looked at the calendar.  Free.  Then, my dog sitter.  Free.  I was the first to respond…Yes.  Yes I want it.

Warning.  This is super long.

It was going to be what got me through the rest of January, ending 30 days of relationship psychosis, where everything is questioned, and realities come to pass.  Unreal.  My family asked me, “Are you okay?”  And of course, if you know my family, you say…

They knew.  And they said get in the car.

On Thursday, I packed up my office laptop, drove to have a meeting and lunch in Fresno with a girlfriend, and barely got out of town before I had some now familiar anxiety when it comes to this particular addiction.  I got my sponsor on the phone, and down the 99 I traveled, to that place that we all love.  Our childhood home.  It’s here where my Mom and Dad will provide me with that most precious quality of love.  The kind that asks no questions.  My sisters came.  Everyone knew why I was there.  And, it wasn’t to run a half marathon.

Of course, the weekend was made ever so special by my sweet niece, who brought over the love of my life…aka Jack.  I am so in love with this baby.  Seriously, when I would get sad, I would just look at this picture and swoon.

My gal pal Penny then invited me on the set of GLEE, and I was all pretending not to be star struck, but she pulled me over to meet some of the cast, and I was simply tongue tied. She bought me the most wonderful dinner at the Larchmont Grill, and we made plans for the Tinkerbell Half…HELLO Mac and Cheese with bacon.  OMG.


All in all a seriously fun night.  Especially when I ALMOST got to be in the episode.  Watching Penny work was a major treat for me.  I love her!

I spent the expo day with friends, and was really feeling the absence.  Letting myself feel it, but couldn’t stand it, so I thought I’d run away to a meeting, when here in front of me was the exact, um, model of Harley I’d been racing from.  I couldn’t even believe it.  I walked in the meeting and was near tears…as usual when I shared, we all started laughing…cuz you know, you can’t outrun pain.  You just gotta go through it after all.

Okay.  So the escape was over.  I faced my fears.

TINKERBELL RACE REPORT

So finally, here is the report.

I make it to Yas’ house, and lay out my stuff.  No.  I’m not Jill.  4am requisite “WTF are we doing up at this hour?” pose.I’m at the back of the corral.  Like the very end.  I suddenly have to hop over the fence and do a little last minute pee.  There went my dollar store gloves.  I was laughing with these girls, who pulled out of their bras baby wipes.  I had remembered my coach telling me about the necessity of these, but do I listen?  (Do we not remember the Potomac River?)  So, she gives me one to put in my pack, which oddly would come in VERY handy at mile 8.  So, we are standing there, and I recognize Jeff Galloway, having been at the Expo the day before with Gina.  So of course, like the truly star struck person I am, I get the pictures snapped and he looks at my garbage bag and says, “I’m sure envious of that bag right now.”  (He glazes over as I explain my love of the Hanson Training Plan LOL)Actual Race Report right here:

Mile 1-3 I simply could not get in the groove.  I was chilly and my stomach was a little fussy…but mostly I was weaving in and out of the TNTers who walk 6 abreast (really, TNT?  We haven’t had this talk, like a million times before?)  We are running in and around Disneyland.  Back in the back, where workers have a smoke, and hey here’s our toilets, and there’s the cafeteria…and I was starting to get pissy about Tinkerbell…so much of the beginning reminded me of Rock N Roll marathons.  Lotta money for a little reward because it’s such a big MACHINE.

We go in and out of the park, which was really cool…Main Street, Pirates of the Caribbean…places that reminded me of my babies (I actually nursed one of them at midnight standing in front of the castle).  BUT.  I was starting to get irritated for reals.  We were WALKING through the Castle…by the Merry Go Round, and people were stopping to take pictures with characters.  And I thought, well, you just have to do the best you can.

My plan had been to go at HMP for 7 miles, because I knew that 13.1 would be tough.  I wasn’t trained, and as we know, I was only there to outrun some heartache.  We were going around Anaheim, in and out of city streets, and by mile 4, I finally FINALLY got in a groove, where I knew I would be around 11:30…And I looked at my watch which had a low battery, so I never knew where I was.

At mile 8, my stomach SPOKE to me.  Like, get off the course now.  Lucky for me, I had wipes.  Found a bush, got right back on the course.  I have no shame about this.  Thank God for the wipes, is all I have to say.

At mile 9, I lost Garmin power.  I ran by the Hula girls, and started throwing the Shaka for my girl Row, for every camera that I happened to see.  I was shocked that at Mile 9, I still hadn’t walked, even a little bit.  There were Clif Shots at Mile 9, and for the first time, took a drink and nutrition.  Perhaps I waited too long.

Mile 10-13.1, we went back through California Adventure, where I remember being with my boys when they were little.  A million years and miles ago.  Some bittersweet memories that collided with times gone by that were not so good.

Finally, I am just starting to enjoy Disneyland.  Thinking, I would do the TINK again.  The crowds were amazing.  AND THEN.  The medal.  As big as my hand.  And heavy.  They hand us a dry bagel and a bottle of water.  Full price for the bib, and I would NOT have been happy.

But, the MEDAL.  I got that thing in my hand, and I forgot all pain.  The smallish pop of my knee at Mile 7 that I tried to ignore…the lousy bagel, and the crowds, and the stupid walkers that rudely stood in my way.  All in all, a 12:19 pace for a 2:45 and change race, for something I wasn’t trained for…not even a little bit.

The Medal.  Seriously.  I am in love.  Tinkerbell, that lil angry cuss.  She rocked my world.

Tinkerbell. And just in time.

Though sometimes ill-tempered, spoiled, and very jealous  and vindictive… at other times she is helpful and kind to Peter Pan. The extremes in her personality are explained in-story by the fact that a fairy’s size prevents her from holding more than one feeling at a time, so when she is angry she has no counterbalancing compassion. Fairies cannot fly in the rain but can enable others to fly by sprinkling them with fairy dust .  

And so I go.  To the Happiest Place On Earth, to run my first half marathon of this training season…thanks to another running angel.

I’m needing the Pixie Dust right about now.

Hollywood Half Marathon Christmas Giveaway

Did you say you want to run with the stars?

I’ve been given a free entry to the Hollywood Half Marathon, on April 7, 2012.

You want to win?  

It’s simple.  You know that I’m running the full San Luis Obispo Marathon

for the Leukemia & Lymphoma Society on April 22, 2012.

Each time you donate $20, I will enter you in the drawing

for a free bib for the Hollywood Half Marathon.

San Luis Obispo or BUST!  Donate here ~~~

I will be drawing the name of the lucky winner on Christmas Eve, and YOU get ready to run 13.1

PS-The winner will get his/her $20 refunded to them by me…so it’s a totally free bib!

Good luck, and let’s do this!!

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