Date: 3/11/2008 4:30 PM
Type: Long
Course: TKD Loop
Distance: 5.21 miles
Duration: 1:00:20
Pace: 11:06 / mile
Shoe: Asics
Weight: 🙂
Weather: Overcast
Notes: Wow. I thought I ran a better pace.
Statistics: Calories: 728
VO2 Max: 27.1

I was really surprised that I ran so slowly.  Wow.  I thought I was flying. 

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So, I’m about 3 miles in, when Cherokee Maiden, by Merle Haggard comes on my playlist.  I start bawling, sobbing, snot running down my face and singing out loud–all during the run.  Seriously, I was glad that there weren’t a LOT of drivers going by, but I’m sure the ones who saw me thought I was losing it.  I was.

Back in 1978, I met a boy.  Married him in 1994, and ended up in court with him this morning, getting near the end of our marriage.  It didn’t end well.  Mostly I was saddened at how this journey went.  We have great kids.  Always will.

Back story:  In 1978, we would sit outside the AGR (Alpha Gamma Rho) fraternity at Fresno State, and sing sappy country songs.  Clay and Rick (who has since passed away) were loud, partying, and fun.  I remember them singing Cherokee Maiden.  A lot.  

So, when this came on today, I ached.  I hurt.  I sobbed.  Loudly.

Running is my best salve right now, though.  I’m grateful.

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2 thoughts on “Cherokee Maiden

  1. Don’t know what to say…..but let your heart hurt so it can heal and be whole again.

    SEE YOU SOON!!

  2. I’m proud of you getting it out. Keep running and let those emotions come up when they do… you need to contact John and get the damn it doll back.

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