Monday, I broke my toe. In the middle of 4th period, I am walking to let my students in, and slammed it right into the corner of a desk. Lucky for me, and for my students, they did not hear what I yelled in my head. The first thing I thought was…Oh. My. I am training for a marathon…and anyone who came to me in the nurse’s office heard me say the same thing. “I’m training for a marathon”. Some poor Freshman came in and I said this to him, and he’s like, “uh, I’m just here to check my blood sugar.” and I’m all…uh… He’s a diabetic, and I’m complaining because I’m training for a marathon.
And, so what this does for me is make me take a step back. To take a breath. To sort of put this into proper perspective. Yeah, my feel look like hell, because I don’t believe I should get a pedicure while I’m training. I’ve worked hard enough, thank you, to get all the calluses I need. But in the moment that the football coach tried to wrap my toe, I was humiliated that my feet looked like something from the black lagoon.
I walk back into my classroom two hours later. And, I slammed it into the same desk. Same desk, same toe. Same screaming, outloud because no one was around me.
I cannot run, and I cannot even put on a shoe. I’m told not to run for a week, and here’s where I think I have a problem. I’m not tapering, I’m weeks away from the Marine Corps Marathon. Everything is the same. Except that I’m restless. I am awake late late at night because I don’t have an early morning run. I’m watching too much TV. I’m waiting and watching my broken toe to see if it gets smaller. It doesn’t get smaller.
It’s only been a week, but it’s been a long week. Broken toes heal. I have lots of blog posts roaming around in my head. About broken hearts, and loving people, and home mortgage woes and the Los Angeles Dodgers, but really. I have this little 1 inch piece of my body that has been consuming me. I bend and stretch it at every opportunity, hoping for the signal that I can use it again.
Looking to try it out tomorrow.
- Things Your Toes Absolutely Hate (yearofstyle.blogspot.com)
- MYTHS & MILESTONES: What your toes say about you… (runningwithheels.com)
PS: WordPress now lets me add pictures and links, so I don’t have to hunt all over the web. I’m loving it!!!