Looks like I can stop avoiding Valentine’s Day.
In 2007, my world was all shook up, and my marriage ended, three days before my 48th birthday.
On Feb 14, 2008 on this blog, I wrote about The Hat
2009 and 2010, there were no Valentine’s Day Posts.
I simply did not have a Valentine. Not that I didn’t want one. Everyone wants to feel loved and cared for, and yes, it was great getting my Dad’s Valentine card like I have gotten every year since I was born… and because I knew I could count on that card, each Valentine Day had some type of promise in it…but… I had no one to love, and no one was on the horizon.
Then I met Harley Guy who swept me off my feet. He tells me he loves me, that he won’t cheat, and because I’m hardwired now for a man to lie to me, he knows that I don’t believe him. Not all the way. Like, I keep looking under this or that bush, wondering when the truth about him will surface. Because, there’s gotta be something. And it turns out, that I just have to trust in God and have faith that he is honest and good.
I used to be freaked out that I fell in love with him so fast. I was engaged within 2 weeks with my first husband, but was engaged in a year and a half with the 2nd one…I’ve fallen fast, and I’ve fallen slow. So, there’s really no “Look, she does that all the time” point to make here.
With Harley Guy, I get to rub out the record. Each time I’m with him, I get to be new and fresh and feel like a young girl…when you have a catch in your breath, and your heart skips a beat when you see him walking down the street.
Yesterday, we met in the town where we fell in love. Halfway between both of our homes. Today, I received the best gift ever.
This great experience that released me from the bondage of hatred and replaced it with love is really just another affirmation of the truth I know: I get everything I need in Alcoholics Anonymous-everything I need I get–and when I get what I need I invariably find that it was just what I wanted all the time. . [Big Book, page 552]